a brief introduction without introduction

So I guess this is it... my first blog. Well, that is to say; my first blog on this page.
I'm certainly not an experienced blogger, not in the least, but I've had my fair share of blogs already. Of course I don't need to add that they were all little failures, piece by piece. Now you wonder why I'm doing this blog then? Well,... I'm not sure myself. I think one side of me hated the fact that my perseverence is so lacking. I really want to be able to keep a blog. I don't care if people read it. I don't need people to read my blog. this is pure for myself. Of course, you are welcome to read on if you like what I write. I'm certainly not going to stop you. Besides, the internet is the worst place to keep your secrets, so I'm not even going to try that. All though I've got the feeling that whatever I'll write will remain a secret.

This is so typically me! Instead of giving a proper introduction, I just start writing. Freewriting that is. I want to keep my fingers moving. They don't get time to rest. That's okay.
So, my name is Heleen, (but you can say Helen if you like) I'm 19 years old, and I happen to live in a small country named Belgium. You have never heard of it, you say? oh, that's no problem, I'm sure it's on the map. Just check france and the Netherlands and Germany, and You'll find it.
In case you don't, then I've got some bad news for you: you're not that good in geography, mate!
but don't worry, neither am I. You're not a total failure in life, yet. Maybe you should try to write a blog. It does make you feel like you mean something on the internet. Which is rubbish of course, considering the huge amount of bloggers and vloggers all over the world. And I mentioned vloggers. I happen to be one as well. alright, alright, I pretend to be one.
I'm still in the "let's make a video! oh but I don't know what to do! let's make a videoresponse and post it on YouTube-fase" That's not entirily true. I do have some ideas for more 'original' video's (for what that's worth, because originality doesn't seem to be original these days)
but I'm just too scared to film them. I'm not comfortable yet with sitting in front of the camera, hence my videoresponsemakingface. I need to get some cameraskills before I can do the bigger stuff. But I bet that by then, someone will come up with the ideas that I had and so mine will look like they are stolen from those other people. Oh well, they might be not original at all right now, so we'll never now, I guess. That's it for today. I'll just end with this little story concerning my first posted video on my YouTubechannel 'Nenalyzed':http://www.youtube.com/user/nenalyzed/

about a year ago, I saw all these vloggers like: charlieissocoollike, vlogbrothers,... and I realised that that's what I wanted to do. I also noticed that they all had an intro. That's why I decided that I needed an intro as well. I planned to make the intro, and my first vlog would follow soon after I had uploaded the intro. But it didn't go according to plan. First of all, instead of mastering adobe after effects, as I had counted on, I had to face the fact that all my attempts at using it were a complete and utter failure. Secondly, I didn't make a video for a long time, in fact, it took me a couple of months before I posted the second video. And thirdly, I didn't even use the intro when I posted my second video. (Well, technically, it wasn't a vlog, but I didn't use it, so...)

(insert video here)

that's it for today. wait! That's like a deja vu, right?
love
Helen aka Nenalyzed